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December 14th, 2006
02:24 pm - Night out - Must get together before the new year!!! - Please reply
Hey guys
I am not sure if you are all still using live journal i suspect that you are moving on the better things i.e. My space i think that i need to set one up but i jsut don't have the time anymore i would all like to invite you out on a night to have a few drinks and have a laugh between christmas and new year if anyone is up for it. I think that it is high time that i started to spend some more time with you guys i know that i have been negecting you a lot and i think that i have to change if i want to have any friends at all the only day that i can't go out i Monday the 18th cos i have a christmas party for work to go to and obvously the three days arounf christmas day when i guess that we will all be roped in to spending quality time with our families, which once a year is ok, well enough for me anyway.
I think that when we all break up for uni next year we should think about going to a long weekend somewhere maybe in the UK or maybe if peoples can afford to go somewhere abroad. I just want to make sugestions that might get people thinking that i would be nice to stay in touch. I know that bex had the right idea when she sent out all of those letters after we broke up fom school saying that we should keep intouch, i think that seven well now eight years or knowing someone you are not really going to forget that easily, so i think a big gathering will be good and maybe if there is enough of people that want to come then we could book a place somewhere and have a private party and really catch up.
Any suggestions of places to go, or places that people haven't been but want to go don't hesitate to contact me i have a new number now and i will send out a text just so that everyone has it on their phones (make sure that you are not blowing me off a good reason like you lost my number hehe!!)
Hope to here from you all soon and oh! i better give you my new mobile
Its 07825153209
Speak to you soon
Love ya
Charlie
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September 8th, 2006
05:27 pm - Hey People
Hey guys i am sorry that i haven't been in touch int he past couple of weeks i am concentrating on my career and i think that once i get this new job role i will be able to out with you all more often
I have had the best couple of weeks and i have really found who i want to be. I think that i have grown up a lot which is good because going to uni on tuesday will give me a chance to have fun for the next six years before i really have to grow up.
I now know that i would like to have the career that i am going into at the moment and now that i have worked out what i want out of life i think that my life is going to go a lot better now
Also i people will respect me more and now that i am confortable i can start trying to trust people again because no matter what they do and say to me i will still have my life now that i have a decent one i won't get so depressed about it.
Can't wait to see all of you guys really miss you and when i get my flat sorted i will have to invite you all round for drinks and a house party which will be the best it maybe ready for this new year and instead of going to bex's and trashing her house you can all come to mine and trash here for a change i think that it will be the best fresh start of the next year
And i know i lknow that i am already talking about the new year and its not even chistmas
but omg i saw the other day a christmas tree up in a place can't rememeber where but its like september and they are already getting ready for christmas which is a bit mad.
There is seriously going to be a time that the christmas tree is up all year round and easter will be null in void
Anyway i am starting to bable now so i will love you and leave you but will have to invite you all to a house warming when i have one
Live and learn - feel what you feel and don't think about what anyone else has to say
That is my lesson that i have learned this week so i'd thought i would share
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July 31st, 2006
09:10 pm
I can't believe how quick this year is going, i am starting uni in september and i can't believe that it is only a month away.
I would love for everyone to come over to mine on a sunday when my mom and dad are in manchester i will give us all a change to catch up.
Also i think that i need to start making some more time for my friends so just to let everyone know that i am free some weekday nights and i can go out at the weekend only if i don't have anything planned i go up to Manchester.
Miss you guys and i can't believe that i am 20 next year it is so weird.
Oh well i guess that is life and i am trying to have one being single and i am loving it. I think that i will stay single now until Mr. Right (i know that it sounds corney) finds me!
Love you guys see you all soon ok
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July 15th, 2006
07:43 pm
I can't wait til i get my life up and going.
For everyone that doesn't know i have broken up with mat and i am now single
I am trying to get on with my life and i think that it is working
I am having the time of my life being single and i think that it is going to be great i have a lot more free time and i am looking after myself a bit more and the thing is that i want to go out with all my mates but i have too much time on my hands when i want to go out everyone is busy
I am grounded this weekend and i cant go out so i am a bit bumbed i really want it to be tuesday because i am going on a date with a guy from work and i think that it is going to be great have a few drinks and have a laugh and its going to be fun.
I am joining a band in a few weeks so when we have a gig i will invite you all the the party and you can see what you think of my music i really want you guys opinion on it, becuase if you like it then most other people will like it and then maybe if we get a recording good enough i might get released i can't wait.
I have one song already but it needs a lot of work and i can't work on it until anthony the lead guitarist is hear and we aren't rehearsing til wednesday
Hope everyone is ok and hope to see you all soon
Miss you guys xXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxX
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March 23rd, 2006
12:48 pm
Well getting my life back on track with everything. I am having a better time organising my time and I am loving this whole friends and mathew thing. Mat and I are comfortable and this means that i am comfortable going out and not seeing him due to the fact that i have grown up a lot recently.
I tidied my room yesterday and i think this is a real fresh start, Mat called me and said that he was going out tonight and i am fine with that so i will just have a night to myself some alone time, which is good. Also i am looking after myself a bit better and i have to admit when all the stuff when wrong in my life i wasn't looking after myself as much as i should have. But now i am exercising more and i feel healthier and I am really going to keep it up. When i went to bed i call my friend that i haven't seen ofr ages Adam who lives in Harbourn and now that i work at the QE hospital which is just up the road from Harbourn then i can see him more and catch up a little some nights after work.
I texted Nicky after that and I asked her how she was cos last time that i saw her she went off in a huff cos someone had just stolen her bag with everything in and she lost her phone so she didn't have my number when she got a new one. Mat had it though and he gave it to me ages ago, but i didn't phone her, but to be fair i need some more frineds cos i only have a select few that i have known from school even though they are really cool, they all are at uni and they work part time as well and when i am free they are usually busy, cos they have work to do. I will try and call all of them by the end of this month and go out for a drink cos I miss all you guys.
I just called nicky and now we are getting together the our other halves round her new flat and i think i might buy her a house warming present cos i have never been in their house since they moved in.
Getting sorted need to do work and get paid!
xx HUGZ ZZZ
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March 22nd, 2006
12:24 pm
WORRIED!
NERVOUSE!
UPSET!
AND DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO?
Mat and I are great and work is great, BODY IS SHIT
NEED HELP
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March 20th, 2006
12:48 pm
I have been having the most wonderfulln time at work now that john has been fired, but the downer is that i have to re-do all the work that he did while he was here I may have just done it myself. Oh well!re I may have just done it myself. Oh well! Best to carry on and get it out the way.
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Only a fre I may have just done it myself. Oh well! Best to carry on and get it out the way.
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Only a few more weeks until my birthday and I don't know what to do I would love Mat to take me away for the weekend or summre I may have just done it myself. Oh well! Best to carry on and get it out the way.
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Only a few more weeks until my birthday and I don't know what to do I would love Mat to take me away for the weekend or summat, well i don't know! I mayre I may have just done it myself. Oh well! Best to carry on and get it out the way.
Having a great time with Mat at the moment and I am realising that we have settled down just a bit, i really can't wait to move in with him well that is if he doesn't dump me! Like that will every happen, well I hope so!
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Only a few more weeks until my birthday and I don't know what to do I would love Mat to take me away for the weekend or summat, well i don't know! I may go out on the thursday with some work mates after work to the green man or summat, but I don't know if re I may have just done it myself. Oh well! Best to carry on and get it out the way.
Having a great time with Mat at the moment and I am realising that we have settled down just a bit, i really can't wait to move in with him well that is if he doesn't dump me! Like that will every happen, well I hope so!
Only a few more weeks until my birthday and I don't know what to do I would love Mat to take me away for the weekend or summat, well i don't know! I may go out on the thursday with some work mates after work to the green man or summat, but I don't know if I have been here long enough for people to come to my birthday partyre I may have just done it myself. Oh well! Best to carry on and get it out the way.
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Only a few more weeks until my birthday and I don't know what to do I would love Mat to take me away for the weekend or summat, well i don't know! I may go out on the thursday with some work mates after work to the green man or summat, but I don't know if I have been here long enough for people to come to my birthday drink?
I may go out on the tuesday night with re I may have just done it myself. Oh well! Best to carry on and get it out the way.
Having a great time with Mat at the moment and I am realising that we have settled down just a bit, i really can't wait to move in with him well that is if he doesn't dump me! Like that will every happen, well I hope so!
Only a few more weeks until my birthday and I don't know what to do I would love Mat to take me away for the weekend or summat, well i don't know! I may go out on the thursday with some work mates after work to the green man or summat, but I don't know if I have been here long enough for people to come to my birthday drink?
I may go out on the tuesday night with jason but it is getting in touch, I would love re I may have just done it myself. Oh well! Best to carry on and get it out the way.
Having a great time with Mat at the moment and I am realising that we have settled down just a bit, i really can't wait to move in with him well that is if he doesn't dump me! Like that will every happen, well I hope so!
Only a few more weeks until my birthday and I don't know what to do I would love Mat to take me away for the weekend or summat, well i don't know! I may go out on the thursday with some work mates after work to the green man or summat, but I don't know if I have been here long enough for people to come to my birthday drink?
I may go out on the tuesday night with jason but it is getting in touch, I would love just to go to the pub and relax on my birthday, i don're I may have just done it myself. Oh well! Best to carry on and get it out the way.
Having a great time with Mat at the moment and I am realising that we have settled down just a bit, i really can't wait to move in with him well that is if he doesn't dump me! Like that will every happen, well I hope so!
Only a few more weeks until my birthday and I don't know what to do I would love Mat to take me away for the weekend or summat, well i don't know! I may go out on the thursday with some work mates after work to the green man or summat, but I don't know if I have been here long enough for people to come to my birthday drink?
I may go out on the tuesday night with jason but it is getting in touch, I would love just to go to the pub and relax on my birthday, i don't really want to be up all night and getting in late for work. I mare I may have just done it myself. Oh well! Best to carry on and get it out the way.
Having a great time with Mat at the moment and I am realising that we have settled down just a bit, i really can't wait to move in with him well that is if he doesn't dump me! Like that will every happen, well I hope so!
Only a few more weeks until my birthday and I don't know what to do I would love Mat to take me away for the weekend or summat, well i don't know! I may go out on the thursday with some work mates after work to the green man or summat, but I don't know if I have been here long enough for people to come to my birthday drink?
I may go out on the tuesday night with jason but it is getting in touch, I would love just to go to the pub and relax on my birthday, i don't really want to be up all night and getting in late for work. I may just book the day off as holiday and relax at home don't know re I may have just done it myself. Oh well! Best to carry on and get it out the way.
Having a great time with Mat at the moment and I am realising that we have settled down just a bit, i really can't wait to move in with him well that is if he doesn't dump me! Like that will every happen, well I hope so!
Only a few more weeks until my birthday and I don't know what to do I would love Mat to take me away for the weekend or summat, well i don't know! I may go out on the thursday with some work mates after work to the green man or summat, but I don't know if I have been here long enough for people to come to my birthday drink?
I may go out on the tuesday night with jason but it is getting in touch, I would love just to go to the pub and relax on my birthday, i don't really want to be up all night and getting in late for work. I may just book the day off as holiday and relax at home don't know yet haven't decided?
I re I may have just done it myself. Oh well! Best to carry on and get it out the way.
Having a great time with Mat at the moment and I am realising that we have settled down just a bit, i really can't wait to move in with him well that is if he doesn't dump me! Like that will every happen, well I hope so!
Only a few more weeks until my birthday and I don't know what to do I would love Mat to take me away for the weekend or summat, well i don't know! I may go out on the thursday with some work mates after work to the green man or summat, but I don't know if I have been here long enough for people to come to my birthday drink?
I may go out on the tuesday night with jason but it is getting in touch, I would love just to go to the pub and relax on my birthday, i don't really want to be up all night and getting in late for work. I may just book the day off as holiday and relax at home don't know yet haven't decided?
Last week was the works party and I had a really good time and i think that everyone is going to take the piss out of me due to the fact that i made a scene of myself at the party and it was captured on camera. I really hope that one mistake doesn't affect my work environment and my work in future jobs due to the rumours that might be going round
We have a really nice new member of staff at doc Control called Mel to do what Mel did before yeah i know its a bit confusing but everyone in Doc Control understands so everyone will have to get used to it.
Haveing a great time build my computer with mat and he bought me Theme Hospital and I love it, i haven't played the game in years and now i really can't stop playing it.
xx Hugz xx (Back to work again)
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March 6th, 2006
12:51 pm
I have finally got my contract and i can't wait till i start work but i think that it is going to have to start on the 1st of April and then get paid on the 7th from my agency for the week in hand that i did and then get paid a full wage packet (which is for a month) on the 15th and then have loads of money for my birthday - That's what i will do.
I am having a really lovely time being with mat he is so nice to me. We spent the whole weekend together!
Last week was mad and by the end of it I was really tired, due to the fact that i went out with bex and moe on the thursday night at Aston Uni and had a really great time but could enjoy myself that much cos all that i could think about is that i had to be in work in the morning i really hated that. I got home about 1.00 am and then had to get up for 7.30 am so not much sleep.
On the friday we all went out for a meal and then the cinema Me, Jordan, Bex, Jords new BF (I think) and saw a chinese film that had subtitles. Mat and Hope and Catherine and Pete joined us at the cinema. everyone said that they hated the film cos it was crap but i got into it, but got a little lost in the middle, Mat agreed with me and i felt a little silly cos everyone else hated it. - Note: Didn't get the bit about the sword that didn't do anything that the dug up and opened and when they heard someone coming it went back in the box ?????!!!!!????? What!
I must admit I thought the moment i sat down that what the hell have we come to see. I had never heard of it before and Jordan chose it, so i made an effort to really enjoy the film. Mat told me when we got home that he thought the same and made an effort to watch it and get into it. Which was nice cos he didn't want to say that it was crap because he was with my mates and not his own.
He said that we will have to go out to a pub sometime cos he hasn't really got to know everyone properly yet, so next time we go out will have to be a weekend and at a pub - What do yo say?
On the saturday me and mat stayed in bed until 11.00am which is very abnormal now cos we usually get up cos we have to get things done. It was the weirdest thing, that mat said that he loved me when i was sleeping and then he asked me if i would marry him while i was sleeping and then i dreamed that we got married and that we settled down. how weird is that just because he said those things it made me have those dreams?
Mat said that we had to get out of the house on saturday cos it was a really nice day, so we went to have a look round walsall and have a pub lunch which was nice just the two of us for a change. - I paid and mat said that he would pay for the evening
We went out with mats mate Chris who lives just up the road from him and his girlfriend - Went to Modern China
It was really nice but i felt like a pig cos i had one more course than everyone else. Oh well
That night we stayed at mine again.
Mat wanted to do up his computer and i had to talk to my dad about my contract and what he thought of it, which was a complete waste of time cos he didn't even know anything about it and he hasn't really told me any important information. I have brought it to work today to ask Alistair and Tat to help me cos they might know a bit more than my dad due to the fact that they have both gone through the same process cos thay both work for Balfour Beatty
On the sunday we went back to mats to have lunch and to see if he could fix his tv on his computer. Then he asked when are we going to build my computer and i said we can start it today if you like cos i have some money in my bag that i can spend. So we went to maplins and got a shell for my computer and me already has a motherboard that i can use but without a processor so I used he other really realiable motherboard untill i buy a processor. So that will have to be next weekend and before i know it i will have a really decent computer and then i won't have to touch my dads computer i will be able to use the internet upstairs and then i wont be bothered all day.
Can't wait!
I'm almost there with my life just the little ends left to tie up and then i will be a proper independant working girl. Yey me!
Well lots of work to do so i better get on!
xx Hugz xx
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March 1st, 2006
01:00 pm
I can't believe it i had to go to the doctors this morning about my back and she suggested that i should get phisiotherapy (I know I can't spell) - This is great cos i got a letter from my solicitors yesterday and it reaminded me about all the money i could be getting. It is probably only a couple of 100 but even that is good cos it would be a nice little bonus in the middle of the year. I really can't wait!
I have to wait for a call from the doctor telling me when my apponitment is and then i will have to go. By going to this it will make my case stronger. All that i have to do is tell my solicitors that i have been and they will put it forward and see what F & B have to say.
Yey! Monies!
Oh and i have made an appointment to have the contraceptive injection and i don't know whether i am doing the right thing. I really care about mat and i think that i really do love him, but i don't want to have this done for us if us is not going to work, the doctor says that it could really mess with my body a bit and i don't want to do that for someone that doesn't care. I told him about it and he seem pleased but i really don't know.
On the plus side i can talk about my body in a different way know, i think that i have got over that hurdel. Yeah!
Still waiting on the contract from work and i think that i am just going to send Alistair an e-mail about it so he gets his ass into gear.
I still need this security.
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February 27th, 2006
12:50 pm
I had a wicked weekend i really enjoyed spending time with mat. He drove me all the way up to Hull and we had a really good time even though he couldn't watch me have my photos taken. I think he didn't mind sitting outside for a bit. He said that he had a really nice time. We got there in 2 hours and it said on teh dirctions that it would take three so i think going 120 mph up the M1 hepled (ya think. When we got there it was in plenty of time due to the fact that we left at 7.00a.m and weren't supposed to get to the studio until 11.00a.m. So we tried to find a place to have breakfast and we drove around the same little spot for ages. Then i said that i wanted to go to the Princess Quay shopping centre that we saw the car park for but all the one way systems we couldn't see how to get there. I was an hour before we found it (Well i found it - directing mat all the way) We had a nice little breakfast in the shopping centre (Mat had scone while i pigged out on a Hamburger and Fries) Oh my God! The Fries up north or wicked they has salt and paprika on them and they were lovely I will have to try those here when i am cooking at home. We left the shopping centre at 10.30 and drove round to the place which was litterally 5 seconds away and we had to stand outside for 20 mins due to the fact that i wanted to leave early, i thought that he would be waiting for us so if we were early we could leave early. he wasn't there at my surprise and mat was right as always he wanted to stay at the shopping centre and leave a bit later, he said that he wouldn't be there yet. That we had to get there at 11.00 and no earlier. He was right, he is always right. That's what i love about him.
When he arrived we when up to the studio and got started and he told us about the company and what he has one previously and i think that he is really gunuine and mat does as well and it is good to get another opinion on the matter. When i got there i was really nervous cos i have never had a bloke take photos of me, so i thought it would be better if mat stayed with me, but he insisted that he wasn't there due to the fact that it is more professional cos i would be consentrating on the poses that i was making and not on mat which was fair.
After he had taken some photos he had a look at my portfolio and he said that i was really good but he didn't like the way some of the pictures were captured, so that makes them not suitable for the portfolio. I think that i am going to ask him which ones are best to have in my portfolio to get more offers to be a model.
He seemed really nice on the whole and once i got into the swing of taking photos i realaxed more and the poses became more natural. He said that i had really nice eyes and that the photos should draw you to my eyes to make them stand out more. I think that he was really proffessional i every way, so if i get a job with him then i think that it would make it easier for me to work with him. I really can't wait till he replies and sends me my photos so i can see how proffessional he is.
Apart from all that i had a really nice time and mat was very supportive and i think that he will help me to make a decision when the time comes to get a modelling job. Which makes me love him more and more - Oh my god i just reallised that this is the first time that i have said that i love him when doing my LJ i can't believe it maybe we are mean't for each other. I have to tell him and i wonder if he feels the same ...... Oh my God!
On the sunday we had to take the graphics card back that i bought him for xmas. I stopped working for some reason. I took it back to PC World Jc 9 M6 and they didn't have any of the models that mat wanted. So we got a refund and wen't back to his for lunch. Just before we sat down to eat Mat found the PC World in town and he thought that they may have the one he wanted. So after lunch i said that i would take him up there to have a look (The least i could do since he took me to Hull yesterday) We got there after a struggle round the ring road. Guss what they had all the models that he could ever want to put in his computer, so he got the best on on offer, which was £180. I said to him that i would pay for it and that it didn't matter. He insisted that he give me some money towards it but i don't want him to.After he installed i and started to play his games the resolution was so much better he couldn't stop smilling. he kissed me as if to say thank you. So i think that he likes it.
After that we wen't back to mine and had dinner and watched a move that he hadn't seen before 40 days and 40 nights which was so funny and i said to him maybe i should take the vow of selabesy and he said no cos then it would be like him taking the vow as well. Which is a good thing cos that means that he would think about being with anyone else while he was with me. fantatic!
Well had a fab weekend and i think that my life is back on track after last year. Thank Mat you have been a really help
Love to all
XX Hugz XX xx xx xx xx xx
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February 24th, 2006
12:53 pm
having a great day so i thought we got called into a meeting with the project managers and they had a rant about health and saftey thet is starts with the people on site not what the finishing building is as of yet.
So they obviously mentioned "Death" they say that we were on the verge of kill someone the other day on Vincent Drive and that they want to make sure that it won't happen we had 5 last year alone they said and that we are in the way of killing 6 people in 6 years. Oh my god! so what the hell are we trying to do when building this hopital
Fascinating fact: Construction Industry Kills 3 People A year more than any other industry.
Anyway ....
i have be waiting all day to go home and get my hair done print out my e-mail and find the directions to Hull tomorrow. I really can't wait and i only have until about half three to do it my appointment is at 4.15 which is good so i can get my hair done and get home and be round mats in time for dinner.
Mat hasn't called me all day and i tried calling him but he is not answering, he is probably deep into a computer thing! he is so cute when he gets him computer sorted.
I think that i have figured him out cos i have realised that if i let him do what he wants to do first and just sit there watching TV or making him a cup of tea, then when he is finished he will pay loads of attention to me. he also noticed that i have lots some weight on my thighs and he said that he loves thighs - then he corrected himself and said i love your thighs (meaning me) so i think that this diet is working and that i will be looking my best in no time.
Well must get back to work and delligate some more duties to John I like bossing him about and showing him what to do, due to the fact that it takes up a lot of the day and that means i am busy all day and the day goes quicker
Roll on 3.30 p.m.
xx Hugz xx
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February 23rd, 2006
12:36 pm
Its even closer to the day that i go to Hull with Mat, I really excited. i can't believe that i am really going to a modelling interview. Mat is going out tonight as always and he said that he would see me friday, well he has to in a way cos i am staying over his, Oh yeah! that reminds me i have to book a hair appointment in me lunch today for friday afternoon. I am having my hair in curls like they were on my modelling photos. So i he does take some photos while i am there then at least my hair won't be boring straight as it always is.
I am having a good time at work John is doing all the labouring stuff which would take me a few minutes and he is taking his time and having all day to do them. He is looking for a new job anyway so i don't know why he is here in the first place. I really can't wait till he goes.
Well i have my own login to the system now and my own B.O.L login as well and this means that i am being taken on properly. Yeah! Hehe hehe.
Life is going swimmingly and talking of which i am going tonight to really do soem last minute exercise before i go to the interview on saturday and i won't be able to excercise at mats unless......
hehe hehe hehe heheh
Well i think i am going to try an find the phone number for thehair salon that i went to with Heart FM
xx Hugz xx
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February 22nd, 2006
12:54 pm
I have a good hold of tyhings in my life now. The post is going out today which will contain my Phone bill transfer in, which means that i will be paying it now instead of my mom. My p45 came from Frankie and Benny's yesterday (finally) - when did i leave agian oh yeah over four months ago. At least i will get my tax back at the end of the tax year. Which is around my birthday, also i haven't heard anything about my back claim towards Frankie & Benny's so when that come through i will have some more cash. When my modelling gets going hopefull after the weekend it will and when i sign up with this agency next week. All that needs to happen now is for me to sign my contract for work and then it is good buy old childish immature and careerless charlie and make way for the future where anything can happen. As long as i am fit healthy and working earning money i will be ok anything else that happens in between is a bonus.
Good times xx
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February 21st, 2006
12:44 pm
I have the best time with my life at the moment. I am getting regular exercise at least 15 mins a day but that is all i need to do to gain myself a great body. It will take time i know but anyway i will get there i am really determined.
I have had a offer to come to an interview type thing for a modelling agency. Mat said i have to go because then he can say that he is going out with a glamour model. Well we are going on saturday morning to Hull to meet this guy and maybe get a few photo's done and get some money. Hehe hehe!
I have also i an offer to join an exclusive agency which will help me get some modelling work. But it is £125 to join but they say that is very small compared to what i will be earning as a model. But that is if i get any work.
I have also set up my internet banking and my savings is going great i have now got a little cycle going of where my money is going and how much i am letting myself have a week. I have given myself £120 to spend in the week and any of that which i don't use will go in my savings on thursday before i get paid, but i will leave £30 in there for emergencies at all times. Every night after i get paid i will transfer money from my savings current account to my savings account and then transfer money from my current account to savings current account (If you get any of that it might be a good way of getting me into a regular savings thing) If you don't oh well i understand ish ! hehe hehe
I think i have got used to the fact that me and mat have separate lives and don't have to see each other all the time and don't have to call him everyday. I think i have reached a break through. I said to him yesterday that i didn't want to see him cos i wanted to work out which is good i think. I can;t believe that i really like him and am getting settled enough to trust him not to do anything when i am not there and he calls me on regular occassions the same way that i call him every so often. I think we have got a really good relationship and that it may last. We'll even if it doesn't last i am doing things for myself am happy with my own life. I think that i have realised that i am happy with my own life which makes it easier to be a part of someone elses. Maybe i am growing up - Finally
I think that if i had gone to uni i wouldn't be doing all this for myself and i wouldn't be learning about myself, which means i would still be acting a bit foolish at the age of 22 which is when i am supposed to know about the world so by not going to uni i am getting a head start on me for a change.
I still have a demanding job that is if John wasn't hear due to the fact that i would have a few more things to do each day which would keep me occupied all day but in this case i am having to really find things to do, John is doing all the nitty gritty stuff that i do when i don't have any immediate work to do.
My dad shouted at me the other day due to the fact that i was using my latteral thight trainner in my room and he was moaning that it would ruin his floor so he said exercise downstairs so i said that he had to move out of the lounge so i could exercise listening to me music on the DVD player (The CD Player doesn't work) He said "You have to do it in the conservatory" I said "NO DEFFINATELY NOT" Its so cold in there! So i didn't exercise all over the weekend apart from the treck around Merry Hill with mat. I started to exercise yesterday in the Kitchen and i felt really stupid so i said to my mom "I am exercising in my room it dosn't do any harm to the floor cos the machine doesn't move when i am exercising. So therefore i will exercise in my room and i don't care what you think" She repied "Well don't complain when dad goes off on one" I answered "I do give a SH*T" I exercised in my room that night and weighed myself after. I lost 4lbs last week and if it carries on i will lose a stone in 4 weeks. I can't wait till i reach 8st or just over so i can be thin a tonned good enough to be a model.
that all
xx Hugz xx
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February 20th, 2006
February 17th, 2006
12:47 pm
I have been at work all week and i am loving it i can't wait ti ll i get a contract so then i can say that i officially work for the BNHJV not just temping. I sounds a lot better on my CV. I can't wait till i give mat his present for valentines day i will just rub it in that he didn't get me anything and that i think of him all the time. I called him today and he sounds better but he is saying that his throat still hurts. Oh well that means that he won't want to sleep with me tonight infact any night until he gets better. Oh Well when he is better i will be on so then he will have t wait. MEH!
This guy that i am training is getting on my nerves he was late this morning without explanation, and he is just so slow. Also gave him all the print jobs to do for yesterday and they cam back and they were all wrong i can't believe it he is so incompetant i will screem if he becomes my boss (very unlikeley) He is so slow all he has done today is corrected the print jobs that he did yesterday and it is know lunch time. Now he is filing the day file drawings which will prob. take the rest of the afternoon due to the fact that he is so slow and that he has even less time cos we leave and 4.30 today instead of 5. Oh my God he's slow and apparently been in this business for 20+ years.
Whatever he is defo not getting thi job.
I can't believe that alister would give him a contract anyway. I think that he is only here on a temp basis anyway cos he has he own log in to the system but he still has to use mine for BOL. I can't wait till he is gone I will get a lot more done without him here. Also Tat say's (my manager) that we can't talk about sex because he is here and we can't talk about all our nights out because it would be girly gossip and it would be weird for all of us to talk about it while he is in our office. Not to sound harsh but he does need to go as soon as possible.
he even complained about the space in the office and that he was sitting at am angle to his computer all he would have to do is turn his sceen to face him and then prob. solved he was talking about moving the desks around which would just be a hassel unless he wants to do it on his own in his own time then i can't be arsed to move. He is just an old fool and shoouldn't be working in this business cos he has no idea what he is doing. I still can't believe that he was complaining about the space it is a small office and if we enlarge our space we are making someone elses space smaller. It not fair he should just go there is not room for him and there is no need for him in this office and if anything needs doing i could do it twice as fast as he could. Ok maybe not twice as fast its more like century's faster he is that slow. After he does one little part of a job he sits there and stares into space and does nothing for 5mins all i want him to do is get on with it and he doesn't
Oh well he will be gone soon
Glad when he is!
Thats all!
xx Hugz xx
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February 15th, 2006
11:06 am - Valentines Day Oh! My God!
I cant believe it that yesterday the day that i would be love to spend with my boyfriend i was disappointed that he didn't even see me. he said that he was tired and that he wanted to get to bed early. He means that he wants to go out with his other mistress not me i cant believe that he would stand me up on the most romantic day of the year. I would care if it was any other day but valentines day is supposed to be special especially our first together. He didn't even call me yesterday at all even just to say happy VD. I think that either he wants to see less of me or that he just couldn't be bothered cos he was seeing someone else.
I spent most of the night talking to other people via text and i wanted to make them feel special as friends to me due to the huge fact that they all mean a lot to me. I also i had a VD text of Dan Butlin and i talked to him most of the night about mat and he was very supportive telling me that maybe he is planning a big surprise for me and that he had to be either before or after valentines day to make it even more of a surprise. But i don't want to think that dan maybe right due to the fact that if he is not i am letting myself in for a big disappointment. I just want to know that hew thinks of me when im not there cos i blatently do when i am not thinking about work which is never cos my job is so easy a monkey could do it.
I am having second thoughts to whether we are going to last. I don't know what to do whether or not i have to tell him that i am not happy with how laid back he is. Or do i just need to change to be more laid back so i don't worry about things as much as i have been doing. i think if i carry on worrying about how our relationship is doing instead of going with the flow then i am in risk of jeopardizing our relationship. I do care about him a lot and i would like to see this relationship through but oh i don 't know! I am rubbish at relationships anyway, maybe i will grow old alone!
Well anyway i have handed in my CV for my job and my national insurance number which means that t is really going through i can wait till i get this and them when i start getting monthly pay then i will be able to get on with my life and have more stablitity
I have change my back details to the internet and i have finally got my phone coming out of my account after this months payment which means that i can start saving and paying my mom back. I can't wait!
Oh Well Life Goes On! Or maybe not in some cases!
That's all!
xx Hugs xx
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February 13th, 2006
12:51 pm
WORLD'S LONGEST & MOST RANDOM SURVEY
Time starting: 12.10
1.) When showering, do you start the water and then get in or get in and start the water?:I turn the wter on leave it to heat up and then get in
2.) Do you read the labels on your shampoo bottle?
Yes
3.)Do you moan in the shower like the people on the herbal essence commercial?: haha....no
4.)Have you ever showered with someone of the opposite sex?: yes
5.) Have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings?: um...i used to have baths with my brother/sister when we were younger?
6.) Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower?: no
7.)Have you ever dropped your soap on your foot?: not that i can remember, but probably
8.)How old do you look?: depends who you ask, some say 12, others say in my 20's Silly Eh!
9.)How old do you act?: Depends on who i am with i can act very immature at times sue to what mat has said to me
10.)What's the last song you sang?:Pink - Familly Portrait
11.)Have you recently become a member of anything?: Memeber of the BNHJV - I got a contract yeeaaaaaahhhh!
12.)What are your plans for the weekend?: same as usual stay at home until i find something to do with someone that doesn't cost a lot of money and see mat
13.)Do you kiss with your eyes opened or closed?: either, usually closed
14.)Have you ever ridden a mechanical bull?: yeah - it was awsome
15.)Do you ever intentionally vomit after eating?: once
16.)If you were working on a pirate ship, what would you most likely be?: Dancer probable or a bar lady depends on what they have
17.)Have you ever called anyone a slut?: not really
18.)Have you ever been called a slut?: Yes by most people at Sutton girls
19.)Have you ever smuggled something into America?: Yes my bro he is a rare aminmal ;) not really
20.)Does playing the guitar make a girl/guy more attractive?: no its the personaltiy
21.)Do you live in a city with a good sports team?: of course!
22.)Have you ever finished off the popcorn?: all the time
23.)How many people do you think would come to your funeral?: excluding family probable about 3
24.)How many of them would come just to make sure you're dead?: out of the friends none
25.)Do you have more enemies or more friends?: i would like to think that i have more friends than enemies but it whether they like my not m disliking them
26.)Have you ever sent an anonymous letter?: yes
27.)Can you fix your own car?: yes
28.)Have you ever turned someone down for a date?: once
29.)Are you smarter than your friends?: probaly not due to the fact they all went to uni and im stuck filing its good but any dumb ass can do it
30.)Have you ever stolen anything from your friends?: Never
31.)Have you ever been to jail?: no
32.)Should you have?: nope
33)Do you like the smell of beer?: i used to work in a pub so it grows on you - especially guniess
34.)Have you ever died or killed someone in a dream?: yeah most of the time - maybe its all the torment i sufferd at school being call a slag - i never killed my close friends just the people that hated me at scholl for no reason
35.)Have you ever given to charity?: yes
36.)Would you kill a dog for $1000?: no way
37.)Do you sometimes get depressed?: sometimes but mat makes me see sense and i don't that often anymore
38.)Do you live with your parents?: yeah mom and dad still together
39.)Do you have plans for your future?: yeah going to get rich being a model well hopefully
X MARKS THE SPOT
You are
[x] short, under 5'4 (im not actually sure of my height)
[x] 5'4 -5'6"
[ ] 5' 6.5''
[ ] 5'7" - 6'0
[ ] tall 6'1 and up
NATURALLY
[ ] blonde
[ ] redhead
[x] brunette
[x] dirty blonde/brownish
[ ] dark brown
[ ] black
[ ] blue-eyed
[x] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel-eyed
[ ] gold/gray-eyed
[ ] silver/gray- eyed
[ ] blue/green-eyed
[ ] blue/gray-eyed
[ ] they change colors
[ ] glasses
[ ] contacts
[ ] BOTH.
[x] neither
[ ] short hair
[x] medium hair
[ ] long hair
Your favorite color(s) are?
[x] red
[ ] khaki
[ ] Aqua
[ ] pink
[x] hot pink
[ ] yellow
[x] black
[ ] green
[ ] lime green
[x] blue
[ ] white
[ ] turquoise
[x] silver
[x] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange
[ ] gray
[ ] maroon
[x] gold
[ ] teal
[ ] clear
[ ] bronze
[ ] don't really care
[ ] I don't believe in favorite colors
Some things you've done?
[x] ice skating
[x] hiking
[x] kayaking
[ ] rafting
[ ] water skiing
[x] camping
[x] horseback riding
[ ] body/surfing and skim/wake boarding
[ ] snowboarding
[x] skiing
[x] dancing (ballet, tap, jazz, etc)
[x] skateboarding - not very well i might add
[x] cheerleading
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] street hockey
[x] gymnastics
[ ] martial arts
[ ] baton twirling
[x] swimming
Your personality is sometimes
[x] talkative
[ ] shy
[x] funny
[x] serious
[x] laid back
[ ] strict
[x] hyper
[x] weird
[ ] ditzy
[x] sarcastic
[x] slow
You cant stand listening to?
[ ] pop
[ ] country
[x] Christian
[ ] classical
[ ] techno
[ ] oldies
[x] opera
[ ] 80's
[ ] disco
[ ] rap
[ ] classic rock
[ ] punk
[ ] metal
[x] screamo
[ ] reggae
The pets you have had?
[ ] cat(s)
[ ] dog(s)
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret(S)
[ ] bunny(S)
[x] fish
[ ] duck
[ ] horse
[ ] bird
[ ] frog
[ ] hermit crab
[ ] turtle
[ ] hamster
[ ] snake
[ ] gerbil
[ ] guinea pig
[ ] pig
[ ] goat
[ ] chinchilla
[ ] tarantula
[ ] geese
[ ] chicken
[ ] none
[ ] hedgehog
[ ] snail
Clothing Brands you like?
(we don't have most of these in the UK)
[ ] Delia's
[ ] American Eagle
[ ] Hollister
[ ] The Buckle
[ ] Abercrombie & Fitch.
[ ] Express
[ ] Target
[ ] Wal-mart
[ ] Wet Seal
[ ] Forever 21
[ ] O'neil
[ ] Pac Sun
[ ] Gap
[ ] Banana Republic
[ ] Aeropostale
[ ] Dickies
[ ] Quicksilver
[ ] Anchor Blue
[ ] Guess
[ ] Lucky
[ ] Champs
[ ] Salvation army/goodwill/VALUE VILLAGE!!!!
[ ] Old Navy
[ ] only name brand
[ ] Victorias' secret
[ ] whatever is at the thrift store
[ ] Eddie Bauer
[ ] Hot Topic
[x] Anything
[ ] Alloy
Shoe Brands?
[ ] Flip-Flops
[ ] Nike
[ ] Adidas
[ ] reebok
[ ] Billabong
[ ] Roxy
[ ] Puma
[ ] Jack Purcells
[ ] Uggs
[ ] Etnies
[ ] Reefs
[ ] Converse
[ ] K Swiss
[ ] Adio
[ ] DC
[ ] Steve Madden
[ ] Vans
[x] If I like something a lot I'll buy it
[ ] New Balance
[ ] LEI
[ ] Payless
[ ] DVS
Your confessions:
[ ] I'm afraid of the quiet
[x] I am really ticklish
[x] I'm afraid of the dark - After a scary film
[ ] I've collected comic books
[x] I shut out others out when I'm mad
[x] I open up to others easily
[ ] I read the newspaper
[x] I love Disney movies
[x] I am a sucker for eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[x] I bake well
[ ] I have worn pajamas to class
[ ] I love Martha Stewart
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS
[x] I am self-conscious
[x] I love to laugh
[x] I drink alcohol on a regular basis
[ ] I smoke cigarettes
[x] I can't swallow pills
[x] I bite my nails - trying to stop
[ ] I play computer games when I'm bored
[x] Gotten lost in the city
[ ] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[x] Made out in an elevator
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Been bungee jumping
[x] Bitten someone
[x] Dressed up like the opposite sex
[ ] egged a house/car
[x] Smashed into a car - more like bumped into the back of it
[ ] Been fired
[x] Been skinny dipping
Have you ever?
[x] danced in the rain
[x] Seen a shooting star
[ ] Proposed to anyone (jokingly)
[ ] Gotten stitches
[x] Eaten Sushi
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Been on a cruise ship
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[ ] Been on a Plane by yourself
[ ] Had surgery
[x] Seen a movie more than 3 times in the theater
[x] Been on stage
[x] Peed somewhere other than a toilet
[x] Gotten a black eye
[x] Memorized all the dialogue in a movie
[x] Watched an entire baseball game
Do you like?
[x] old movies
[x] musicals
[x] blasting music in your car
[x] foreign foods
[ ] anime
[x] Christmas time
[x] donuts
[x] animals
[x] coffee
[x] tea
TWO'S OF EVERY KIND
Two Names You Go By Other Than Your Real Name
1. Petal
2. Chig
Two Parts of Your Heritage
1. english
2. american
Two Things That Scare You
1. worrying too much/reading too much into things
2. losing people i care about, in whatever sense
Two of Your Everyday Essentials
1. food
2. water
Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1. work clothes
2. new lilac bra bought the other day
Two Things You Want in a Relationship
1. love
2. trust
Two Truths
1. You can garantee that when you hope for something that you know might be out of you reach when you hve it something changes to take it away
2. Good friends are forever and you should never stand on them to get to the man you maybe in love with becasue they won't come back if you walk all over them to get what you want
Two Things that Appeal to You In a Guy/Girl
1. Good head on his shoulders - knows what he is doing an can give me advice
2. Good sense of humour
Two of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. being with people that car about me
2. swiiming
Two Things You Want Really Badly
1. so stability in nmy life
2. this yeah to be over so i can move in with mat
Two Places You Want to go on Vacation
1. italy
2. paris
Both with mat
Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die
1. have a familly
2. have enough money to leave my kids
Two Things You Are Thinking About Now
1. what has to be done at work
2. filling in this rediculously long questionnaire
Two Stores You Shop At
1. river island
2. ID
Two people I haven't talked to in a while
1. Vanesha
2. Dan Harris
Two favorite animals
1. kittens
2. puppies
Two reasons your doing this survey
1. I'm on my break at work
2. I just edit my live journal every day
End time: 12.50
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February 10th, 2006
12:52 pm
I am having a great day besides the fact that i haven't had the meeting with alister about my contract all that i want to know is whether or not i have the job and stop messing me around at least at that point i will know if i need to start looking for a new job. I just want to get off the agency work. I need a constant income to pay for my new car (pics avaliable soon)
I really am so happy with mat it unbelievable (I know its sad but i like him a lot) plus i think that we are starting to settle a bit which is good we are doing things on a regualar basis, which means that we are comfortable with each other. I know this may sound gross so don't judge. We are so comfortable with each other we have baths together and we talk in the bathroom in the morning when one of us is on the toilet and one of us is brushing our teeth. I know I know but what can you do when you settle and you both need to be in the bathroom at the same time. :(
So what am i going to do with bex we have a great time when we are out and she texts me to say sorry and still she has all this upset inside bex i am here for you to talk to we need to go out this weekend so if you read this before the weekend which i'm sure that you will since you update regualarly, call me when you are free.
i know you have work and i know that you are going to the game and going out with mates but i'm sure that you can squeeze me in between your busy schedule.
I miss everyone we need to have a day out. Some time soon xx
Hugzz xx :)
Oh well back to work i think time iis up :(
xx
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